Saturday, March 10, 2012
So, I have been implementing different eating habits.
1)I have cut back on my animal products. Chicken, cheese, milk, fish, beef, pork etc. It isn't easy by any means. I have to put up with a lot of grumbles but I want the whole family to embrace these changes because it is better for us!
2)I have greatly reduced my oils that I cook with. Oil is pure fat. Yes, even olive oil. Did you know that cooking sprays can call their products fat free despite the fact that it literally spray fat in a can? How do they do it? Serving size. They can reduce the serving size so low that the percentage of fat i below a certain point they can put "Fat Free" on the front of the can. Flip your over and look at that serving size. 1/3 of a second spray! No seriously, it says that. Who can do that? Who would try? If I do use it I use it sparingly. If I bake I am going to try the applesauce or pumpkin substitutes. When baking veggies I toss them in veggie broth instead of oil.
3)I have eliminated milk almost completely. I am really liking Friendly Farms Almond Milk in Vanilla. It is only 80 calories and something like 1.5 grams of fat (and ZERO cholesterol) for 8 fl oz. You can find it at Aldi for under $3. I have also tried the Silk brand soy milk. It is okay too but I like almond milk better I think. Silk actually tastes more like cow's milk but I think the almond milk tastes like a melted vanilla milkshake. Which is good when you are eating healthy unsweetened cereal. I would like to find a substitute half and half for my coffee.
4)Whole wheat when we can. I stopped buying white bleached flour. I buy whole wheat bread, buns, wraps, pasta, and cereal.
5)I eat veggies and fruits! I take an apple and an orange with me to work everyday. I buy frozen berries and mixed fruit since it really isn't in season. It is like eating a Popsicle.
6)I am attempting to cut back on wine & coffee. It is sugary, empty calories. It is hard. I like wine. It is sort of my treat. So we have been filling out wine glass with the frozen fruit to displace the wine and then limiting to only a couple glasses. Then I get to eat the fruit. Coffee has become limited to only the weekends. es, I gave up my half and half. Boo. Hiss.
This is what I eat for breakfast EVERY morning.
- 1 cup multigrain Cheerios
- a handful of old fashioned oats
- almond or soy milk
- 1 kiwi (YES kiwi! Try it)
- 1 banana
*Did you know that kiwis have twice the potassium of bananas? Did you know that potassium removes the extra sodium from you body? Did you know excess sodium is a contributor to heart disease and high blood pressure? Eat your bananas and kiwis!
For lunch I usually have a whole wheat wrap smeared with roasted red pepper hummus then I pile it with veggies! Cucumber, peppers, tomatoes, spinach, mushrooms, roasted peppers....its yummy and filling.
Dinner has been a lot of experimentation. We have been eating a lot of roasted and baked veggies. I did a spaghetti bake with zucchini and tomatoes that was yummy. I made eggplant burgers and gnocchi soup with spinach. I have to give in a couple times a week and make some sort of meat product. I think they'd revolt if I didn't.
I have been reading my copy of "The Engine 2 Diet". It is incredibly informative. If you are even at all interested in learning about how food effects your health you should read this. It tells you all about how animal products are so awful to our health. Such as, there is a thing called casein in milk and cheese that causes and feeds tumors. It talks about how the food industry are more worried about their bottom line than your health and lie to us on their packaging. This book teaches you to find the truth that is provided in the nutritional information and ingredients lists. It also shows you the way to better health and lower cholesterol, blood pressure and a long list of other things. It is an eye opening read! PLEASE READ IT! I seriously want to buy a copy for everyone I love. It touches on a lot of information and is easy to read and implement in your life! Very motivational.
Weight went back up a couple pounds after I quit the juicing. I am still losing though. This week has had a lot of failure in it. I haven't been taking my lunch so I have been ill prepared and have had to run and grab something quick. Next week, I am back at it full force. I have to make sure I allow that time in the morning to eat my breakfast and make my lunch. I have lost 1 inch on my waist and 1/2 inch on my chest. Those are results that make me smile. Something a scale can never do. Inches speak volumes to me! I feel so much better than I used to! I am only on one blood pressure pill now. I had a day where I was feeling dizzy and my eyes were weird. MY BLOOD PRESSURE WAS TOO LOW! I couldn't believe it. I can't wait to get off of this last one. That is my true motivation. Feeling better on my own without any chemicals in my body!
Sunday, February 12, 2012
We probably could have carried on and lost a bunch more weight but we just didn't want to. Lets be honest, 5 days without eating is a pretty big feat for this chubbie girl. I was just tired of feeling so tired. Not that I am feeling any more energetic today but at least I am not fretting over eating or not eating for that matter. I am being very sensible and I am attempting to eliminate a lot of animal product from my diet. I am now an almond milk advocate. I was really skeptical but it is actually really yummy. I bought the vanilla kind and it makes the plain whole wheat cereal I had this morning delicious.
SO the diet continues. This week, I am beginning a new full time job, so meal planning should be a snap. I am hoping to juice my lunch and bring healthful snacks. I will keep you posted.
Friday, February 10, 2012
This is my husband, Tanner, sucking down some green before work. We call this the "How fast can we drink our juice?" stance.
I was really hungry this afternoon. I came home from a meeting and Gavin was eating lunch. Daddy let him have some Chex Mix. The scent of Chex Mix permeated the entire room. Ugh. My belly growled and my mouth watered. I went and drank my green juice and had two glasses of water. Which I think is pretty good since I sat next to this person at my meeting that had just finished something with barbecue sauce on it. The empty container was sitting inches from me. I smelled nothing but that sauce for a hour. I almost asked them to throw it away. I almost stole it and licked it. I think my nose is on overdrive. I am still a little achy and tired. I have been sleeping like a rock. I plan on turning in early tonight too. Energy level is on the mid/low level. No headaches today. Neither of us feel like we have lost any weight but haven't officially checked onto it. I didn't get my walk in today either. The weather turned sleety and then snowy. No thanks.
I am decently perky today despite severe food cravings. I am beginning to worry more about that first day off of the fast. When you come off of a fast you have to do it slow so you don't freak out your system and make yourself sick. I hope I can continue to make healthful choices and not lose my head. Though all I can think about at the moment is a breakfast at IHOP. I am pretty excited for tomorrow to be over! It is the halfway mark, thank goodness. I am tempted to weigh in but I might wait until the 10 days is up. Maybe a weigh in would be encouraging. I really need some of that right now.
What we juiced today:
I made a grapefruit, orange, apple, blueberry, strawberry, raspberry, and celery. It was a good mix and I used up the last of all the berries. Then a carrot, kale, sweet potato, lemon, celery, & apple. It is pretty lemony which is fine by me. Tanner made his own to take to work. He used romaine, kale, celery, kiwi, and apple. We are getting low on groceries! We will have to make a trip to the grocery store tomorrow. For those curious: we hit up Aldi first. They have way better prices on produce. Whatever we can't get there we get at the dreaded Walmart.
I am really looking forward to tomorrow. It is definitely a milestone I am happy to hit. Tanner seems to be in better spirits today. Killing me still, by talking about food all the time.
Thursday, February 9, 2012
I want to chew this.
Today I am exhausted. I was good this morning and then about 3pm I started to wilt like a flower. I am feeling a little achy too. I am still constantly cold. I just can't get warm. The only relief from that is a hot shower. I did get hungry about 2:30p and need to make a juice but I wasn't able to get to making one until about 3:30p. Want some gross body info? I haven't had a proper BM since day one, I have a weird white coating on my tongue, and began my monthly cycle yesterday. That may be what is causing the tired and achy stuff. I pee about 30 times a day. The cravings are still there. I made Gavin some clam chowder for dinner. Something we both love. It was rough. I made him describe it to me like I had never ate it before. Funny coming from a 5 year old. Took the dog for a nice long walk despite wanting to take a nap instead. No head ache today. Yay.
I probably could have easily been persuaded to end it today. Feeling tired and achy makes me want to curl up into a ball on the couch AND EAT SOMETHING COMFORTING! I had a day dream about meatloaf with mashed potatoes and peas. One of my favorite meals. My mouth watered while watching a cartoon eat french fries. I might be a touch depressed over missing cooking. I love to cook. Juicing isn't the same. I am also feeling a little disappointed in my naivete. I thought this wasn't going to be a lot easier. I even thought I might be able to carry this on for 30 days. Ha. Nope. No way. And a completely different nonjuice side note, I begin a new job on Monday. So I am dealing with some sadness over not being a a stay at home mom anymore.
What we juiced today:
For breakfast we had a grapefruit, strawberry, carrot, blueberry, raspberry treat. Then a cabbage (uck, used too much), apple, kale, kiwi, celery, carrot, & cucumber. After the cabbage fiasco I had to have something sweeter. I made orange, kiwi, blueberry, carrot, kale, and sweet potato. Not to shabby.
Doing great on the water. I had a green tea this afternoon and might have another one tonight.
Tanner's low point, I think, was last night. He was irritable and impatient. Other than also being tired today he seems perky. Hoping for my turning point soon. Waiting for that "great energized feeling" I have heard so much about. From what I can find in researching, I am still in the clean out phase. Ugh. I also heard it does it best when I am sleeping. I may go to bed at 8p tonight. Don't wake me up.
Now that the juice fast is under way, I have been beginning to think about how I am going to utilize this healthy jump start. I found the Engine 2 Diet with Rip Esselstyn. It is a whole foods plant based diet. I actually think it is more appropriate to can this a lifestyle than a diet. Rip Esselstyn was introduced on the Forks Over Knives documentary that I watched a while back. He is a professional triathlete turned full time firefighter. If I remember correctly, he and his firefighting buddies made a bet about who had the lowest cholesterol. They all went and got tested and found that one of them was actually really sick. So, the entire fire station adopted a plant based diet. Getting them all healthy!
In his short documentary, "Forks Over Knives Presents The Engine 2 Kitchen Rescue", Rip makes a visit to two homes to show them the light. He goes through their cabinets and refrigerators and explains why the food they buy is bad for you. Basically, you can't believe anything on the front of a package. Everything that you buy should be flipped over, reading the nutritional panel and the ingredients. One woman claimed that she was already a vegetarian but a lot of the claimed "vegan" store bought items in her refrigerator were high in fat and cholesterol. His diet is anti anything that came from an animal: cheese, milk, meat, it all has to go. He also gets rid of anything with high sugar content and sodium. All while teaching them what the safe levels are.
After they clean it all out he takes them shopping to Whole Foods. Color me green because I am jealous. The closest Whole Foods grocery store to us is 127 miles away in St. Louis. I used the store locator on their website. They do the majority of their shopping in the produce section. Surprise, surprise. He says that frozen fruits and veggies are acceptable so are beans and whole grains. If it doesn't say "whole" in front of it you don't want it. There is talk of some other things to add in some sort of yeast and other things that I worry I will never find here. *sigh* Maybe a once a month trip to Whole Foods is in order.
They bring home their groceries and he teaches them how to cook and replace the meat, cheese and milk. One family does a burger and fries, lasagna, and a salad that uses only a squished up avocado for dressing. The other family makes cereal, a panini, pizza and ice cream using only frozen bananas and some vanilla. It was interesting and they all looked like things I would eat. So, I am truly tempted. I would like to get his book and read it cover to cover. There is a website that I browsed this morning, engine2diet.com. There are recipes on there and some guidelines for a 28 day challenge that looks tempting. I figure after drinking only juice for 10 days chewing just about anything with be good. As much as I am tempted to go nuts when I am finished with this juice fast, I know I can't. I have to move into healthy eating. I am trying to get together a game plan. I think this is a good place to start!
Here is a video from his sight about the 28 Day Challenge. Isn't he a cutie?
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
I have one day crossed off on the calendar countdown!
I feel good. I am not overly tired or hungry. If I get hungry I drink a juice and some water. It lasts about 3-4 hours between juices. I am still craving. Pinterest is the devil with its beautiful pictures of recipes I want to try. I am still freezing cold. I had a touch of a headache the same time today. I felt better after a juice and some water. I went to for my daily walk with Jackson and felt good. Last night, I was suddenly so tired I couldn't keep my eyes open. I usually wait up for Tanner when he closes but I just couldn't last night. I usually toss and turn for 45 minutes before I fall asleep. Last night, I laid down and was out.
Afternoon and late evening is the hardest time today. Tonight was the worst. I want to snack. Today I am craving Double Stuffed Oreos with a big glass of milk. I can't even remember the last time I had those but I want them now. Or some milk chocolate pudding. Mmm chocolate. Otherwise I feel good. No weeping in the shower or yelling at the kids. :) Or kicking the dog. I had a professor in college, that would give us these great life pep talks. About how you have to make a life doing what you love. Making yourself happy so you don't "go home and kick the dog". I think it was a metaphor for being miserable. Anyhoo, emotionally, I am good.
What we juiced today:
I actually did half the days juicing before bed last night so Tanner would have juice to take to work in to morning. I made our super fruity breakfast juice. It was REALLY good. It had strawberries, raspberries, green apple and pineapple in it. Yum. Then I think I messed up one of the green juice of the day by adding too much ginger. It had red leaf lettuce, carrot, celery, cucumber, and about 1" of ginger. The ginger overpowered the whole thing. Then I made my go to from the meal replacement last week. It has cucumber, carrot, celery, kale, kiwi and a green apple. This one is good.
Met and then some again. I am really glad I can have decaf green tea or I would really be missing my coffee. Well, more than I already am.
Over all today was BETTER than yesterday. I know Tanner is having some serious issues with being around food constantly and that darn caffeine withdrawal. He was pretty crabby getting up this morning. He said he couldn't concentrate on his work last night. So I hope he starts feeling better or it is going to be a rough 10 days for me and his employees!
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
We juiced this morning for the whole day. *Not pictured is the fruity morning juice.
Today, I have been freezing cold. I cannot get warm. I don't think that has anything really to do with the juice fasting but for the sake of journaling: I AM COLD! So far today, I have had three juices. I haven't been really hungry. Not like empty tummy growling hungry yet. I had a little of a headache about noon. I am guessing that might be a little caffeine withdrawal. It wasn't awful though. It went away after I had my second juice and some water. Energy level has been good. I am a little tired now but we stayed up pretty late last night. As suspected, I miss chewing. I had to resist popping a strawberry in my mouth. I am craving something salty or savory. I can't stop thinking about french fries, popcorn, a big Reuben sandwich with horseradish or my beloved Chex Mix. I even thought about putting one little Chex in my mouth, tasting it and spitting it out. Then, on second thought, that sounded like shear torture.
I hit a weak spot this afternoon. I was craving and had to distract myself from thinking about how far away 10 days is. Feeling a little frustrated with myself for feeling weak but I am not weak! I yell at myself in my head. :D I have not let in to my temptation. I might have licked the soup from my finger when I tested the temperature in Gavin's dinner though. When people talk about food my mouth waters. For some reason, Tanner's way of coping with the craving is talking about food. I could smack him. Just the mention today of a Jimmy John's sub made me sad. I love food. I love making it. I love eating it. I love the feeling of comfort from warm tasty food. So it makes me sad to not be able to do any of that right now.
What we juiced today:
First juice was an all fruit juice with pineapple, strawberry, peach, kiwi, and apple. It was pretty good. This afternoon and evening juices were a little less yum and more don't think about it just drink it. Tanner concocted these two one with kale, romaine, carrot, celery, cucumber, lemon, and apple. The other romaine, cilantro, sweet pepper, cucumber, lemon and carrot. Um. Yeah. I wasn't big on them. I think it is the romaine that doesn't do it for me. There is a bitter flavor to the juice. It might be the lemon. It needs tweaking to say the least. I am contemplating a fourth juice before bed. I need to make Tanner's juice for work tomorrow because he won't have time in the morning. I want to just eat a pepper. Crunch it in my teeth.
Water Goals for the Day:
Met and then some. I drank 16 oz before and after juice. I also had an additional glass of water and a decaf green tea, extra hot, this evening.
Sigh. My prediction is that tomorrow will be worse. Other than some cravings and some ho hum juice it hasn't been so bad. Right? I think I am going to watch Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead one more time to motivate me.
I have decided to set a goal for a 10 day juice fast! The hubby has decide to go along too. We are beginning today. We went to the grocery store last night,spending $100 on produce (and a few things to feed our son with.) We had our last meals. I said good bye to chewing with two large California rolls (sushi) and Tanner made himself a steak. We also had a couple drinkies. Cheers to a better, healthier us!
Now the first couple of days are supposed to be rough. I am trying to prepare myself for that. I have been trying to bring myself down slowly off of caffeine but Tanner hasn't. He has a Mountain Dew addiction. I think he is going to have a hard time with that. From what I have researched, it takes a few days for the body to adjust to only getting fast absorbing nutrient rich juice. There are people that don't even get out of bed for a couple days. I do not have that luxury with a little one to parent and poor Tanner will be at his job (a large restaurant chain, poor guy) trying not to kill people. Hopefully, I won't feel that awful. I will come back at the end of the day to tell you how we are both feeling.
The Grocery List:
carrots, 2 bags
celery, 3 bags
kale, 2 bunches
sweet peppers, one large bag
parsley, on bunch
sweet potato, 2
red leaf lettuce, 2 bunches
broccoli, 6 heads
apples, granny smith, 1 bag
strawberries, frozen, 1 bag
blueberries, frozen, 1 bag
raspberries, frozen, 1 bag
Left over from last week:
*Despite the fact you are supposed to not use any supplements while doing a juice fast I did purchase a fish oil supplement.
- Fast will go from Tuesday 02/07/2012 - Thursday 02/16/2012, unless I decide to continue on longer
- Focus mostly on green leafy veggies
- We will be using our borrowed Jack LaLanne juicier
- Most juices will be a 3:1 ratio of non-sweet veg to sweet fruit and root veg
- Will be rotating the veggies used to achieve a balance of vitamins & minerals
- Water goal: 64 oz per day (*some decaf green tea counts)
- Will be drinking 4-6 juices a day.
- I will journal each day how I am feeling, what I am doing, how great or awful that may be
We are hoping that this will jump start a change in our bodies preparing them for a healthier lifestyle. For me, I want to learn how to listen to my body instead of my cravings. I want to feel hungry to eat and not desire the sweet or the salty like I do. I want to scale back on meat in my diet. That is going to be the most difficult life change for me. I was raised that a meal isn't complete unless there is a large portion of meat involved. Eventually, I would like to be okay with having meat a couple small servings a week. I also want to get my weight down to a healthier level to eventually come off of my medications for high blood pressure, eliminate my Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome symptoms, and eventually have a healthy second pregnancy. I cannot be on blood pressure medication and get pregnant.
Right now I am taking 25 mg Hydrochlorothiazide and 10 mg of Lisinopril. I took my blood pressure yesterday and it was 130/84 with a pulse rate of 84 on my meds. It is has slowly been creeping back up the last 8 months. My body is getting accustomed to the meds that I am on.
So here we go!
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
I am still soaking up information about our bodies, food and where it comes from. Last night I watched a documentary called Food Matters. This one was a facts, facts, facts. It talked all about how they have made medical discoveries as early as the 1800s about how healing food can be. That modern medicine gives you pills that don't heal your problems only maintain the symptoms.
Take me for example. About a year and a half ago I went for my regular check up to the doctor. I had crazy high blood pressure. I had had it for a while and didn't realize what was going on. I had headaches almost constantly, nauseated, tired. So tired. It made me crabby to feel so sick all the time and not understand what was wrong. The doctor suggests I loose weight and take these medications. I tried losing weight. I lost maybe 10 or 15 lbs. Well, the medications didn't quite cut it. SO they increase my medications. Now I take two pills for high blood pressure. As long as I take my medicine I usually feel pretty good. If I am feeling better the pressure to lose weight kind of slips my mind. I stop making the effort. The medications are water pills. They make my kidneys over function basically. So much so that my kidneys are moving liquid so quickly out of my body, my body doesn't have the opportunity to absorb as much water and such as it should. The problem isn't gone the medications are just making the dangerous symptom go away. If I don't take my meds, by noon I start to feel sick. This documentary says that if I would have been treated with nutrition instead of medicine I would have had lower blood pressure with a couple months. Maintaining a healthy diet for the rest of my life, I would eventually be cured. My doctor didn't say that. Eventually, my body will get used to those meds and I will need to be increased. People that have high blood pressure can have kidney problems as well. I have had to have mine checked twice already. I can't live on medications the rest of my life.
This is a good documentary if you are questioning your meds and that a pill is the answer to all that ails us. They discuss vitamin therapy and ther are certain vitamins that have proven to alleviate depression, some cancers, high blood pressure, colds, and many other things that plague us. They talk about how the FDA and pharmaceutical companies hide this information. Apparently there isn't any money in healthy people. Did you know it is actually illegal to medically treat cancer with nutrition in the US?
EDUCATE YOURSELF! Doctors do not know EVERYTHING. Only 6% of doctors are actually trained in medical school about nutrition. Did you know that in some hospitals people come out malnutrition because of the poor food they are fed there. Jell-O? What food group is Jell-O?
If you are what you eat we are all full of crap. You know it is true. Is it only natrual to think that we should be treating our illinesses with natrual things instead of chemicals? I am not saying that all medicine is a joke, I am just saying how could nutrition be a bad place to start when making you well?
Sunday, January 29, 2012
After all my research, we decided to give juicing a try. I have a good friend that allowed us the use of her juicer for a bit! I wanted to try one out before I committed to buying one of our own. Hers is a Jack LaLanne Power Juicer. So far, I like it. I have heard complaints about cleaning it but we wash it immediately after juicing and everything has come clean pretty quickly. It has handled everything we've thrown in there like it is nothing. We are planning on doing a one week one juice a day meal replacement. (I keep saying "we" because the hubby is suddenly interested too.) I am going to keep researching the juice fasting because I think it is something I am really interesting in trying. Even if it is a only a few days. We went shopping at Walmart and bought $50 in produce. I am sure that we can get better deals elsewhere but we had a gift card to use.
-green & red apples
I would like to get some beets and some ginger too.
Mmmmm....carrot juice.This is spinach, kale, carrot, apple, celery and kiwi. It was actually really sweet. Kiwis are potent! It overwhelmed the flavor of the whole thing. I don't think I actually needed the apple. I am wanting to ease into less fruit hoping I won't need the sweetness eventually. From what I have learned you want to balance the sugary type fruits and veggies (apples, kiwis, tomatoes, carrots, and beets) with a 1:3 ratio of nonsugary veggies.
I was surprised at how dry this is. I mean, ALL the juice is in the cup and all the left over is in the bag!
I have been researching and researching on juice fasting. There are negative and positive opinions about it. (Just like there is on everything.) Many people worry about how eating only juice is good for your health. Well, from what I have found, you have to juice yourself a balanced diet. You have to get high protein and calories in your juice. You also have to get all your 64 oz of water in too. A fast is supposed to retrain your body to feel differently about eating. Think about what you eat! Is it anywhere close to how many veggies and fruits you are supposed to get?
Okay, here is my typical day. I eat cereal, usually something like Cheerios but sometimes something more sugary. I drink at least two cups of coffee with a little half and half. I will eat a later lunch of a sandwich, usually turkey, and an apple. I might have some water. We eat a late dinner because of my husbands work hours so a snack at about 5pm is normal. A yogurt or some Chex Mix, (I love Chex Mix), pretzels or some crackers. Dinner is usually a large portion of meat and a side of veggie or something processed like macaroni and cheese or stuffing out of a box. I will probably have one glass of water with dinner. The typical dinner rotation includes spaghetti, meatloaf, steak, chicken, pork chops, usually a soup or stew one night with corn bread, stir fry with egg rolls, etc. Often, I will have a glass of red wine later that night and probably more Chex Mix. I feed my kids processed fruit snacks, cheese, peanut butter etc almost every day. Have you read your food labels lately? High fructose corn syrup is in just about everything. Yogurt, ketchup, applesauce, spaghetti sauce, juice boxes....
I want to change the way we eat. So juice fasting retrains your body not crave the salt, fat, and sugar you are used to eating. It sounds tough but I want to know if I can do it. I love food. I love butter, cream, salt, and a big juicy steak. If a juice fast gives me freedom from my body, medications, headaches, and sluggish feeling it would so be worth it for me. I have also learned that this has to be a lifestyle change commitment. If you go back to eating all the crap you will get your crap feelings and crap body back. Common sense. Something to think about! The research continues!
On occasion, I can get the blues. Sometimes it gets lower than the blues. Sometimes it is called depression. I have dealt with these ups and downs since I was a kid. I had a little postpartom depression after Gavin was born. I think that had more to do with moving so far away from where I have lived my whole life than having a baby. There are definitely triggers. Family issues resurface, past relationships, missing people that are no longer in my life, stupid mistakes I am reminded of...things that remind me of these things bring up bad memories and feelings. Sometimes it is just feeling disappointed, mostly in my self. Often it happens in the winter when I am couped up in the house without much going on. Oddly, it hit me last year smack dab in the middle of the summer when I realized all my new college plans were out the window. There were some relationship struggles I was going to at the same time too.
This winter, I want to avoid it all. I am spending time outside every day. I am walking a lot. I am learning how to eat better. I need change. I need to toss out all the hurt, anger, and bad feelings I have held on to. I have to toss out the people that make me hurt, cause anger and bad feelings. I need to let the people of the past remain in the past. Those people are in the past for a reason. It is time to move on. I want to focus on the relationships that I have now. The ones that are meaningful. The people that care about me to stick around. I want to get closer to my husband and my children. I want to remove anything that makes me feel bad about myself from my life. It is time to purge.
I want to purge my life of all the things that make me feel awful. May it be junk food, people or just extra stuff. I want to clean out my bedroom and make it a sanctuary. I want to get all the junk out of the basement. So many boxes from a life I don't live anymore. I want to let go of all the people that make me feel bad about myself. You aren't going to bring me down anymore. I am going to spend more time with my friends. These are the people who make me laugh. The ones who do care about me.
I have to find health in every area of my life.
Because I deserve it. I deserve to be happy. My family does too.
Friday, January 27, 2012
This week, I have been grumpy. Oh so grumpy. I don't know what the deal is with my mood. I have done well with the walking, only missing out on one day because of sleet. If the weather is tolerable I try to go further and further. Having the dog as a walking partner is good. It is motivation. The eating has been kind of awful. I think the stress of trying to eat well is part of the grumpy. Especially since I couldn't get to the grocery store and stock up on produce like I had planned. I am a failure at getting my water quota in. I didn't think this would be such a problem but it has been. I think of myself as a water drinker. I usually don't drink soda or other things. Well, there is coffee. I love my morning coffee. I have been cutting back on the caffeine. I am drinking Folgers Half Caf . (Despite the fact I really don't care for Folgers but they are the only brand I have found that carries it.) I am hoping to switch to decaf eventually but for now I am content with half caf. Maybe switch to an every other day with tea. During the summer it is easier not to drink coffee but this time of year I could drink it all day long.
I am going to rethink how I do the whole thing. I need a visual. Maybe a chart to track water? I am hoping next week will get better. I am borrowing a juicer from a friend to see how I like juicing. I am considering a 15 day juice fast using a plan at Reboot Your Life. I need a jump start. I kick in the pants. Something. I am still researching all of that. This week I think I will try maybe switching out a big glass-O-juice for meal per day. We will see how that goes. I will be back this weekend with weeks goals!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
The Netflix documentary reviewing continues! I have decided this is my education on food and our bodies. Educate, educate, educate. Then you can make the decisions that are right for yourself and your family.
This doc is mostly about how big business companies control all of our food. Everything that you buy at the store was manufactured and branded to make you feel like you are getting what is best for you because it is "farm fresh", from "the farmland" and putting up stats about omegas and whole grain. They want you to feel better about what you are buying so you will buy more. They don't want you to know that "they" got a bill passed saying that "they" do not have to inform you, the consumer, that most of the products you buy and feed to your family have been genetically modified. Meaning: made from a lab and not found in nature. Disgusting.
They discuss the big business of where all the chicken, cows, and pigs come from that you quickly disassociate to poultry, beef, and pork. Growing up in a farming community and having a farming family, I have never been far removed from our food source. My grandpa and father feed the cows that fed us. It wasn't until I was older, purchasing meat at a grocery store where I noticed a difference. The meat from the grocery store looks, smells and tasted different than anything I grew up on. Have you ever heard of "grass fed beef"? Well, big business cattle are kept in muddy pens full of their own excrement. They are fed corn and no grass. Grass greatly reduces the amount of E. Coli in their intestines. There is a heartbreaking story about a two year old little boy who was killed by eating a hamburger. The recall on the meat that was contaminated wasn't activated until 17 days after this little boy had died. His mother is lobbying to pass a bill called Kevin's Bill that would increase standards and inspection on ALL out food. Unfortunately, it seems that many of the people in our government have actually worked for these big businesses, often voting in their favor over the health of the American people. It makes you wonder where those people get their meat.
This is a greatly informative documentary. You should watch it because you are a citizen of the United States. It is important to be informed about the choices you make at the grocery store. With every purchase at the grocery store, you are voting for the items that they carry. If you purchase locally grown, organic, and USA made items, that is what they will carry. It is expensive you say? It is. I know that. My husband and I have that exact discussion. This what we are going to do to do our part: We are going to grow a garden this year. We are going to check out local farmer's markets when the season begins. We are going to pull pack on our meat intake and increase our veggie intake. We are going to make better choices at the store. What are you going to do? First of all, I recommend you watch this documentary!
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I ventured back into documentary world via Netflix again tonight. I chose "Fork Over Knives" and it only furthered my findings from yesterday's documentary. Plants are our bodies saviours. While this doc is a little more dry and a lot less flashy cartoons it makes up with credibility. "Forks" mostly covers the research of two doctors that are original farm boys converted from waiting animal byproducts. It is amazing the years of study that these men have found. Their research closely links the typical US consumption of meat and dairy to cancer, hypertension, diabetes, heart disease, obesity..and the list goes on and on. It talks about how we all believe a bunch of lies. That we are under an illusion that we must drink milk for calcium and eat meat for protein. Their research shows that cutting these out and eating a whole food plant based diet can not only stop the progression of some disease but reverse it. Amazing. If you could add years to your life by cutting back on these items, can you imagine what removing them completely would do? It has really made me reconsider meat. Just think about the quality of life. That alone has me wondering what it would be like to not feel sluggish, tired, foggy, headaches or heartburn. Instead having energy and a clear head. How much better can life actually be just by changing your diet? The only way to truly know is to try it yourself. I highly recommend "Fork Over Knives" if you are even just a little bit curious. Check out at their website for more info too.
It even touches on the government and children's school lunches. How fiscal reigns supreme over health every time.
Over at my other blog, TaaDaa Designs, I made butta! I show simple steps to making your own butter instead of using something that has a long list of "ingredients" I can't even pronounce. You can find that recipe here!
As with any treat, use in moderation!
Last night, I was feeling pretty low about my first day. I went to look for more motivation. While perusing the streaming Netflix, I came across a documentary called "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead". This documentary follows a man who is highly overweight and struggling with his health. He is on steroids for an autoimmune disease and wants to get his body healthy so he doesn't have to continue taking meds. (I can relate to that!) He does what he calls a 60 Day Juice Fast. He basically drinks his veggies and fruit for every meal, passing a couple pounds of produce through a juicer for one meal. They talk about the health benefits being better through juicing because the amount of produce you would have to eat, to get all the nutrients you need, would be a lot of bulk. It is better to get the raw nutrition because when you cook the veggies and fruits they lose a lot of their nutrients. I think they called them micro nutrients. These micro nutrients detox your body. Basically, scrub your cells clean from all the crap you have been punishing your body with. Monitored by a doctor, he drops a bunch of weight and gets to go off his meds. They say even if you do a 10 day detox your will feel like a million bucks. The idea isn't to change your diet to only juice for the rest of your life but get your body ready for a lifestyle change for eating healthy, not ingesting processed food and less animal products. I found this documentary highly inspirational. If I could find a juicer to borrow or an affordable one to buy, I'd like to give it a try. recommend you give it a watch and check out the websites.
Check out www.jointhereboot.com as well!
EDIT: Lots of information in this interview with Joe Cross here!
Monday, January 23, 2012
Part of it is my usual time for myself for exercise was wasted today by events out of my control. I tried to talk little man into a quick walk with me. Wasn't into it today. The other part of it is I am a little down today. It is cold, gray and blustery outside. I want to put on the comfy clothes, get under a blanket, and lose myself in a book. I know I am going to hate myself if I do that. So I did a little Pintrest search for motivation. I came up with this:
Um..eew. That is only a portion of my goal.
So I am smacking that dumb girl whispering around in there. Shut up. I am better than you. You aren't aloud to talk to me.
I know I will probably never be this girl.
That is fine. I am not sure if I even want to be.
But to be her would be okay.
Or just a healthier me. SO this is it. I am getting off the computer and going to go do something that makes me sweat. I know it isn't pretty but I have to. I cannot let those voices creep their tentacles into my confidence. If I do, a year from now, I will see something like this and think about how easily I was defeated.
I cannot let that happen. I just can't.
I woke up wanting eggs for breakfast and so did Gavin. There were only two eggs. Being the good mama I am, I made the eggs for my little man. I made myself a bowl of quick cook oats. I love oatmeal. I have been told that I make the best oatmeal. Better than the packaged kind. Well, of course I do. I make it with brown sugar, maple syrup, and this caramel sprinkle stuff from Pampered Chef. I make oatmeal and it tastes like candy.
Looking into my bland bowl-O-oats, I had an idea. I chopped up half an apple and sprinkled it with cinnamon. It was pretty good. The crisp cold apple contrasted nicely with the hot mushy oatmeal. Before I knew it my oatmeal was gone and I had a full belly.
I added my breakfast to my Spark People food tracker and found out this:
oatmeal 150 cal 3g fat
coffee 2 cal 0g fat
half and half 20 cal 3g fat
apple half 37 cal 0 fat
breakfast total: 209 cal 5g fat
Not to shabby.
While eating my oatmeal, I began my shopping list. The next obstacle I have to overcome is balancing the food my family wants to eat with the food I need. I like to cook dinner and we really do not have unhealthy dinners often. We do like pancakes for breakfast about twice a month. We also like to order in pizza on occasion. I am going to have to be ready for those types of meals. Like one piece of pizza and a bunch of salad or veggies instead of just three pieces of pizza. My self diagnosis is my portions. If I like something, I want to eat more. Like two or three bowls of my home made soup. I'm sure the beef stew is fine for two bowls but probably not the oyster stew that is all yummy butter and cream. I don't want to deprive myself completely because that leads to failure for me but I do need to moderate myself. We will see how that works. Hopefully, a guilty moderation once a week will balance out the rest of the weeks better choices.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
In the beginning there is just me. A woman who has struggled with weight for most of her life. In the beginning there is hope. A hope in myself to overcome my own body. A dream of being healthy and feeling good about what is happening inside and outside of my body. This is the first day when everything is going to change. In the beginning there is only the motivation in ones heart. It is taking that first step on the road knowing some day I won't want to go. It is getting off the couch, out from behind the computer and moving my butt. It is going to hurt. I am going to be tired. I am going to be sore. I am going to struggle. I am going to prevail. Here we go.
Check out the tabs to see my goals, the dreaded before picture, and my big plan to take myself on.